THE PRESENT IS THE ONLY REALITY
This is a quote that has stuck with me since high school and as I travel around the world again my mind has began to wander. Typically I make 2 extended trips a year to Asia, to work on my future collections. And although I have embarked on these bi-annual trips for the last decade – Oddly enough each trip marks a new chapter in my life. I feel that I always experience something new and learn more about myself and my own endeavors on each and every one of these trips. As a teenager I would spend lots of my time thinking about the past and all the “what ifs?” – then another large fraction of my time I would spend day dreaming about the future – what I wanted to be and what I hoped to accomplish. One night it struck me to stop both of these thoughts. I realized the past cannot be changed and the future will always stay a dream unless I began to live in the present. I needed to focus on what exactly I wanted to accomplish and learn how to do it. After much success and recognition I find myself feeling a bit lost. With a twist of bad luck I have found myself sick and unhealthy. As I check into a local hospital in Shanghai for the 3rd time in 6 weeks I began to feel uncertain why I have punished myself in the way that I have. What am I looking for? I’ve pushed my mind and body to the limits but what am I pushing for? Is it the pressure of a perfect collection? Is it the unease of expanding my company? I know that I’m a perfectionist by nature – but I think I’m realizing that career/business success is not the end all in life. I have always been a preacher of working harder then anyone can imagine. To always do something to the best of ones ability or don’t try to do it all. But now at a moment of reflection I’ve had a slight change of perspective. I’ve been pursuing my career relentlessly to the point that I may have been blinded from what the ultimate goal really is. I think I have been caught up thinking/dreaming about the future that I forgot to take care of myself in the present and I may have also neglected reality. Career success is not the only thing that exists in the world. Without health and happiness all the success can be meaningless. I needed to cool down and think about my present self and position. I need to realize why I wanted to work in this business to begin with. I always said my job should be something I enjoy so I would never feel like I needed to work. I need to re-learn what drives me and what inspires me. I always wanted to create newness – to create ideas and products that people would enjoy. Unfortunately I now feel that the machine behind the fashion business has blind sighted me. I need to begin working for today again and aspire for the future but not let that idea control me. Most importantly, I need to take care of myself. The human mind and body can seem resilient but when it gives in you can quickly learn how vulnerable one really can be. In a sense I am glad reality has struck and I have my good ole quote to fall back on – because at the end of the day “the present is the only reality” and I guess I would like to share this and hope that everyone else may take a break during their endeavors even its for a quick second to check up on themselves. The journey to ones dream is a long and exciting one but always remember to love yourself and those around you. Because at the end of the day without your own health/happiness and without those who support you – there isn’t much to enjoy at all. Here are some pictures I have been taking along the way. Old town shanghai and Hong Kong – the world has leaped into the future but it’s always nice to see some good old history and culture. The nostalgic feeling is still one that touches my heart and stimulates my mind.